Starting Tuesday

Fling at the Field - an incredibly high-energy dance party at the Chicacgo's world-famous Field Museum, emceed by Dance Marathon and featuring music by a Chicago DJ and access to many of the museum's best-known exhibits. barbecues and picnics by the lake. outdoor movie night. flag football and Ultimate Frisbee matches. NU assassin the game. Rock the Beach!

all this starting Tuesday, September 12.

can you blame me for being super duper uber excited about going to nu?! the beach with all its beachy events. chicago with its own downtown excitements. and all the music! and dancing! not to mention i already love my roomie who is sooo fun and nice and agreeable and more than i expected and more than i could ever ask for! the dorm has a bunch of fun-loving crazy and not to mention very interesting and talented people who are so eager to make friends and music. the coffeehouses! the formals! really, i'm starting to think NU+ME = a match made in heaven. and that's one of the things that comforts me the most about going to college. i feel like God has blessed me so much already this year and especially with going to NU. it seems like he has made the way clear for me. and when i feel his presence so much i can't help feeling relieved and taken care of.

that's not to say that i won't experience difficulties. for one thing, i am obviously not allowing myself to worry about or think seriously of the academic aspects of going to college. Here i am, thanking God for sending me on a year long camp and providing me with much to do and a cool roomie to do it with. when in reality i forget that my parents are paying a lotta money for me to get an education there. what the?! does that mean i actually have to study? and like.. go to class and all that?! AW DARN.

and then there's this little fact that to go to college i must leave high school and home. and this fact i have known but have somehow effectively denied to be true for a looong time, thinking that why yes, of course i can be in evanston and troy simultaneously! silly me, right? but admit it, haven't you been denying it all this time too? how else can we still talk so carefreely and laugh about silly things so lightheartedly. it's not going to hit you or me until we're two weeks into school and have successfully integrated into our new unique systems. only then will we remember that we have survived without each other for a whole two weeks! then a sense of nostalgia and sadness rush over us as we remember. but not enough to rush us home to each other's presence again. this new thing called college has already grown on us and these new friends too. they're not quite the same fit. but they excite us and we could get used to them give another two weeks.

i'm sick of these sappy goodbyes. i mean, i can't help it and i guess they are necessary but they're making me so miserable that i am sick of them. why do we all have to part, WHY?! why can't we just acknowledge that we were once good friends and will now forever disappear from one another's lives and just.. you know, DISMISS?! like POUF, gone! i guess you don't want that. and neither do i. friends do not come and go like that. so we're stuck here with these pitiful goodbyes and heartfelt promises that are nevertheless bound to be broken eventually. i love you i hate u for leaving i'll miss you i wont' forget you don't forget me GOOD BYE.

Precious Friendship
I'm afraid I'll lose you someday,
For that you've supported me in everyway.
I'm afraid our friendship will ever end,
for that you've always been a best friend.

It's good to have you around,
especially when I'm really down.
Your friendship is so precious to me, no doubt,
It's like air that I can't live without.

Having you as a friend is my honor,
Without you in my life is just bummer.
So won't you take me hand, my friend,
And together we shall walk through life's path until the end.

this is a poem i wrote back in 7th grade when my very close friend amy left for ohio. now, THAT compared to my now pessimistic view of the relationships in my life and the future. amy and i have not stayed close friends for very long after she moved. we exchanged letters but only for half a year maybe. but the interesting thing is, i saw amy during spring break at NU. and it happens so that now we will be attending NU together. funny how people reunite?! hm i guess that (and the poem) gives me a little hope for the future. maybe we could stay friends for a while. if not. when we come together again. we'll pick up from exactly where we left off. there'll still be the ice cream the goofy face expressions the omgs and the laughing. that wouldn't be too bad. will you write?

NU, here i come! all strings still attached!