"Everyone is less mysterious than they think they are." - Elizabethtown

in fact, sometimes it takes only 2 weeks of living in the same dorm as them to figure them out. at the most, after a year, you notice their annoying way of talking or their signature laugh or even better, you know their hearts, you know their selfish intentions or generous nature. I am easily disappointed by the people I know. By how simple they actually are, how little time it is required to know them and how little there is of them to know. or i am disappointed because after years of knowing them, after 19 years of living with them, i am still surprised by the unreasonable or hurtful things they do. i am taken by surprise not because i was ignorant and was oblivious to their real selves, but rather because i never believe in anything less than the best of them. its my faith and optimistic nature that always leaves me the pathetic one to hold onto the past, the good, the way you were. not that i am always predictable and true. surely to some i must appear pretty mysterious and dynamic myself. but i am desperate to be read. i would risk vulnerability and transparency to find someone who understands me. i would expose myself to you, shyly and carefully at first, in hope that you get it. i have searched in vain for someone just like me, for someone who wouldn't disappoint me any more than I disappoint them.