worst feeling

i hate the feeling of going to bed late but having done little work. i feel like i should sleep and start tomorrow with fresh energy, i know i can't do much without sleep. but then i feel guilty and unsatisfied to sleep, like i don't deserve it. this is what college has done to me -- instill in me this disturbing sense of guilt that if i am not working for one night then i am screwing myself over. my mind is just so clustered with mental post-its. i always feel like i put too much on my plate, and i look at other people and see that they have even more, then i pile more on, tis a vicious cycle. but what i hate the most is just being unproductive and depriving myself of sleep because of my unfocused mind and whimsical spirit.